Feel unhappy with my life…for the past 3yrs. It’s frustrating me. I want to quit my job, I want to finish school but can’t find the motivation, I want change but too afraid to face new changes, I regret a lot of stuff I’ve done. I feel so lost because I want to do everything but it’s just so overwhelming.
Right now I just want to quit everything..
My crazy hair has a mind of its own.
Oh.. my.. freaking.. biology studies!
Just finished studying after 12hrs of reading 2 1/2 chapters that consist of 15-20 pages, making flashcards for the glossary, taking notes as I read and doing the study guides for the exam.
Been sitting down since I started, my back is in pain! But I am so glad I was able to finish more than half of what is being covered on my next exam. I am very proud of myself but I couldn’t had done it without the help of my friend, addie.. unfortunately. I have to do what I have to do in order to pass this class since I procrastinate most of the times.
It finally wore off too, so I can go to sleep now. 5-6 hours of sleep is good enough for me before I have to be at work at noon. Tomorrow after work will be another study session to be completed. I am excited! (weirdly)
I have a feeling I will have dreams about chromosomes, the cell cycle, mitosis and its 5 stages, sexual and asexual reproduction..ect.
Love the colors here. Right before getting ready for work earlier today.
I don’t wanna go to school to buy my lab book, I should had done this earlier…like last week.
My liver must hate me. Every single day in this past week I have been drinking. I don’t want to go to work either. I’ve been off for the last two days and now they put me to work for 9 days straight. Assholes! All I want to do is lay in bed forever!
The newest and cutest little furball out of 4 kittens, the other 3 are all black. It’s like a reverse ugly duckling.
Just booked my flight for Miami on July 30th- August 4th.
From what my coworker #1 told me, my coworker #2 leaves on vacation a week before my coworker #1, then after my coworker #1, I would leave on vacation, after me.. coworker #3 is going after I get back from my vacation.
I hope so, because I wanna go to Miami before school starts.
Sometimes I just feel like flicking off everyone and telling them “fuck you!”
My mood went from feeling good to feeling like shit.
Is this what I have to go through now? Because I don’t know exactly how to deal. It isn’t good to keep these feelings bottled in. I’m overall angry at a lot of things.
Every time I think about what you did my blood boils up and I just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs.
It makes me sick, every fucking time.
Can’t believe you would always make me feel like I was the one doing everything wrong in our relationship when in reality, it was you all along.
7 years of feeling like total shit because I left you when I was 17 to be with someone else. If you could never get over that, why should I get over or even trust you again after what you did?
I’ve lived an unfair relationship this whole time.
Now it’s my turn to stand my ground and never let you walk all over me again. I will speak the truth without being afraid of what you think.
The hardest part is that I will never forget you or even stop loving you because you’ve made me grow into a strong young lady. You shaped me into the person I am today. But my feelings for you have now changed…