Been awake since 5:45am and I can’t fall back to sleep. I have so many thoughts inside my head. I want to stop whatever it is that I’m doing and go back. I’m so afraid of letting my guard down for homeboy. Bonnaroo is making me nervous, I’m not ready. I have to register for my fall classes. Still waiting on the money that was stolen. I need my own car. I want to get rid of so many things in my room and redecorate everything. I keep telling myself that I can’t anymore. I hate the way I am and never know my own potential. If it wasn’t so difficult for me I would take more risks, more opportunities. I would go back to being that sweet/nice girl. I’m so afraid and confused. I want to go back to when I was okay. 6-7yrs was too long, I’m probably making a mistake. I wish I knew how to let go and do life right.
I haven’t been here on tumblr in forever… I’m excited I’m going to South Padre next weekend and seeing Bassnectar, Zeds Dead +other djs at UME festival.
Super random, being there 3 days but fuck it. Kind of nervous about going since I’m going with my coworker and her two dude friends. I hardly even know them. Should be fun though, or I hope!
Close enough. Damn snapchat keeps me up at night.
What the hell, first I dream that a plane crashes right in front of me.
Last night I had a dream that I was selling drugs in a random house. The people who lived there didn’t even know where I kept all my stash or knew I was selling. One of my old friends was in my dream, with his group of friends who were little skater boys. It was really random and weird.
I believe I’ve seen too much breaking bad.
Feel unhappy with my life…for the past 3yrs. It’s frustrating me. I want to quit my job, I want to finish school but can’t find the motivation, I want change but too afraid to face new changes, I regret a lot of stuff I’ve done. I feel so lost because I want to do everything but it’s just so overwhelming.
Right now I just want to quit everything..
My crazy hair has a mind of its own.
Oh.. my.. freaking.. biology studies!
Just finished studying after 12hrs of reading 2 1/2 chapters that consist of 15-20 pages, making flashcards for the glossary, taking notes as I read and doing the study guides for the exam.
Been sitting down since I started, my back is in pain! But I am so glad I was able to finish more than half of what is being covered on my next exam. I am very proud of myself but I couldn’t had done it without the help of my friend, addie.. unfortunately. I have to do what I have to do in order to pass this class since I procrastinate most of the times.
It finally wore off too, so I can go to sleep now. 5-6 hours of sleep is good enough for me before I have to be at work at noon. Tomorrow after work will be another study session to be completed. I am excited! (weirdly)
I have a feeling I will have dreams about chromosomes, the cell cycle, mitosis and its 5 stages, sexual and asexual reproduction..ect.
Love the colors here. Right before getting ready for work earlier today.
I don’t wanna go to school to buy my lab book, I should had done this earlier…like last week.